Today I trained with my iPod
. I’m still listening to Wayne Jacobsen, and at this point, I’m working through some of his podcasts. I am so challenged and excited by what I’m hearing. It’s all I can do to refrain from shouting “YES!!!” while I’m listening.
My iPod was cleared this weekend – on purpose, due to a hitch with my Nike+ system – and I’ve been painstakingly replacing all the info/settings/log-ins on it for the past two days. I woke up Monday morning and realized that my long and detailed “to do” list is missing. As are all my spectacular alarms (I’m a little bit anal…) At first, I panicked. Then I realized how freeing that was. As I listened to the podcasts on my walk this morning, I realized that it was probably the hand of God, helping me on this journey of freedom. I’ve not tried to replace either one (though I may have to put the laundry alarms back on to avoid backlog there…)
In the podcast Wayne shared how he likes to simply wake up in the morning and ask God what He had planned that day, and how he (Wayne) could participate. A terrifying prospect for this list-oriented, type-A personality. It so impacted me, however, that I actually came home, showed the kids the box with their curriculum in it for next year, and simply said that they were free to either follow the assignments I have already programmed into their Google calendar, or they could wake up, journal with God about what He wanted them to accomplish, and send that off to me. If I believe that what they have written is from God, they are free to do that, instead. I showed them the box of curriculum that needs to be completed before they can graduate, and I’ve set them free. (You should probably know that the kids and I have just completed a university-level course on this kind of journaling, and I’ve seen many examples of their journaling, and believe that God truly IS speaking to them already, so I’m not too worried).
How cool is that? How wonderful to be able to teach my kids to be free to listen to God and follow His leading. How wonderful to be practicing this myself.
Oh, don’t worry, we’ll all screw up regularly, but it’s a great path to be walking. SO much freer than lists and obligations.
I’ll keep you posted…
Darlene
Understand me, here, I love to go walking with Tom – we don’t have to talk, I like just being with him. Sunday’s walk was a real workout though – endurance, mostly, because it’s been ages since I’ve done a long, fast walk, and the first time takes a lot out of me. We weren’t talking – which is fine on a meandering walk, but deadly for me on a training walk. I just start to think of how tired I am, and how I want to be somewhere else.

As many of you may know, I’m an advocate for 
For the past couple of months I’ve only been training about 3x a week, and that, only for an hour. It’s better than nothing, but it’s not good enough.
It did “beep” me through my workout, though, and I did an interval workout to get some more of this fat blasted off. Woohoo. Toes are still thawing out, but otherwise I’m feeling pretty good.
I am a huge proponent of making changes through small steps rather than attempting huge life transformation all at once. I get burned out easily, and so overwhelmed that failure is inevitable.

