Walking on the edge…

Today I trained with my iPod .  I’m still listening to Wayne Jacobsen, and at this point, I’m working through some of his podcasts.  I am so challenged and excited by what I’m hearing.  It’s all I can do to refrain from shouting “YES!!!” while I’m listening.

My iPod was cleared this weekend – on purpose, due to a hitch with my Nike+ system – and I’ve been painstakingly replacing all the info/settings/log-ins on it for the past two days.    I woke up Monday morning and realized that my long and detailed “to do” list is missing.  As are all my spectacular alarms (I’m a little bit anal…)  At first, I panicked.  Then I realized how freeing that was.   As I listened to the podcasts on my walk this morning, I realized that it was probably the hand of God, helping me on this journey of freedom.  I’ve not tried to replace either one (though I may have to put the laundry alarms back on to avoid backlog there…)

In the podcast Wayne shared how he likes to simply wake up in the morning and ask God what He had planned that day, and how he (Wayne) could participate.  A terrifying prospect for this list-oriented, type-A personality.  It so impacted me, however, that I actually came home, showed the kids the box with their curriculum in it for next year, and simply said that they were free to either follow the assignments I have already programmed into their Google calendar, or they could wake up, journal with God about what He wanted them to accomplish, and send that off to me.  If I believe that what they have written is from God, they are free to do that, instead.  I showed them the box of curriculum that needs to be completed before they can graduate, and I’ve set them free.  (You should probably know that the kids and I have just completed a university-level course on this kind of journaling, and I’ve seen many examples of their journaling, and believe that God truly IS speaking to them already, so I’m not too worried).

How cool is that?  How wonderful to be able to teach my kids to be free to listen to God and follow His leading.  How wonderful to be practicing this myself.

Oh, don’t worry, we’ll all screw up regularly, but it’s a great path to be walking.  SO much freer than lists and obligations.

I’ll keep you posted…

Darlene